Friday, May 20, 2011

To be remembered...

Erin Kramp.  I remember watching the Oprah episode a few years ago.  Class must have been canceled because I rarely ever got to see Oprah during my college years.  I was too busy working full time and going to school full time.  I remember the episode because I remember crying and feeling sorry for a  6 year old girl who lost her mother too early to breast cancer.  I cried because I put myself in her shoes. I cried because I was the child.  I couldn't imagine a life without my mother. 

I went on vacation this week to celebrate my husbands promotion and to get away from the hustle and bustle of everyday life.  We had been out all week but this afternoon was different.  Exhausted from a day at the pool my two lovelies lie next to me.  The room was cozy and I can see the view of beautiful crystal clear ocean water.   Channel Surfing I was able to catch the last half hour of one of the final episodes.  Erin-Kramps-Final-Message
It was an update of the once six year old girl that I cried for.  Payton's mother had only weeks to live when she decided to record every memory and piece of advice that she knew her daughter would need.  She did it with such positivity even though she knew that any day could be her last.  I lied there observing what a beautiful girl Payton has become and how her mother would be so proud of her today.  And then it came...The final message that Erin left to the world.  I cried this time because I am the mother.

Erin is an inspiration.  We truly take things for granted.  I am guilty of this.  For the past couple of months I have vowed to live as though it was my last day on earth, but even while I was on vacation this week I was down, something was bringing me down.  I spent some alone time with my husband and we chatted and laughed and hugged and kissed and looked into each others eyes.  And then I realized.  We both had been so busy that we didn't even realize that we were growing distant.  Time is the enemy.  It creeps up on you.  That's what made me feel down.  I try to be so grateful and generous with my friends and my daughter that I realized I was forgetting to include my best friend.  My life partner.  The beating in my heart. 

It's so easy to lose track of this because we are so busy trying to be the perfect mom, but we have to realize we are not the only parent. There is two, but children see us as one unit.  I've learned that the best gift you can give your children is a truly great marriage.  So like Erin I will live my best life.  I will enjoy today like it was my last day.

Erin...You will be remembered.  I hold you in my heart thank you for watching over me and all the other mothers out there.

Photo's from our mini vacation:

 My favorite photo ever !

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